Sunday, April 8, 2012

Happy Easter

This morning I woke up with Great is Thy Faithfulness stuck in my head. We've had a really great weekend with my mom and Mike's family together all weekend but it wasn't without its hardships. A road trip, a holiday, a cute outfit without the matching little brother suit...but the hardest thing happened Friday night.

"Now everyone can come home to God," Jesus said. "Death is not the end of you. You can live forever in Heaven because I have rescued the whole world!"
-The Jesus Storybook Bible

I read autumn part of the Easter story. Most of it, really, because she was so worried about how hurt Jesus was that I went ahead and read to the end of the women finding the tomb empty. Afterward, she asked her usual million questions and I did my best to answer. Mike came in at one point and answered some of her questions, too. I think some of this happened because Autumn was tired but she asks about baby Garrett and Heaven a lot just anyway. She is also quite impatient with the adoption process. Friday night, though, she got downright upset and angry because she misses Garrett. She said, "I don't WANT baby Garrett to be in Heaven with Jesus. I want him here with me. What if he opens his eyes and Heaven and he is sad because he doesn't see us."

I'm sure there are more heartbreaking conversations but that one ranks near the top for my personal list. I tried to explain to her that baby Garrett might miss us like we miss him but that in Heaven, the Bible says there aren't any sad people or things and that if we believe in Jesus, we can go there to be with Him--and baby Garrett.

Of course, after snuggling Autumn and calming her down, I cried. But, in all of this, I'm thankful for Easter because it's the reason I can have hope. Without the resurrection, a bigger story, a divine plan...I'm not even going to think about it.

Great is Thy faithfulness,
O God my Father,
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not
As Thou hast been Thou forever wilt be.

Great is Thy faithfulness!
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see;
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided—
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!

Summer and winter, and springtime and harvest,
Sun, moon and stars in their courses above,
Join with all nature in manifold witness
To Thy great faithfulness, mercy and love.

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth,
Thy own dear presence to cheer and to guide;
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside!

Thomas Chisolm


  1. Without the divine, Sharaze, we're all just meat.

    Happy Easter. :) You guys are adorable, and, for all that you have hard days, I think you've carried on with aplomb.

  2. Your daughter is so sweet. My five year old often tells me to tell his little brother to come down from Heaven and come live with us. If only they knew how we wish we could. Thank you for sharing this story of how you helped your daughter through grief. I too have published a blog about the grief, my son, niece and other children I know are processing losing Jake. I am so happy that we will be able to see our sweet babies in Heaven one day and that although losing a child is horrible, at the same time our kids are learning about our marvelous Lord.