I had my own rough day Easter morning. It's so silly but seeing my friends post their kids in matching Easter outfits, that's so hard. I'm sure any friends dealing with loss or infertility know exactly what I mean, though. And then we got to our church's service and there was this really freaking adorable baby in front of us and she kept staring at me and grinning! I'm not exactly what anyone would call a "baby person" but, man, I told Mike that the baby was taunting me with what I don't have! I was mostly kidding.
Kind of the worst moment of the week, though, came on Thursday. Right before my preschool class (I'll tell you something funny about that class this week), I got a text from A,
It's just little things, you know? Like yesterday I was working on my big painted rug project (I think I bit off more than I can chew on that one!) and Mike was clipping holly tree runners. Autumn mostly played near us but at one point she was just...sitting....at the end of the driveway, staring at her Aunt Lindsay's house, hoping she'd bring Ellie out. Autumn has a great "only child" personality. Probably because she is an only child for all practical purposes. But still. She'd love having a sibling so much. And she looked so very lonely. Mike and I sat down and watched her. It's a hard thing. We love our little family. I am happy with Autumn. And I miss Garrett. And I miss