Sunday, April 21, 2013

Not Without Hope

Original Version from the Capture Your Grief project.

I haven't written much this week because I really didn't have anything inspiring, happy, or not depressing to talk about. There isn't much news to report about Heather, I'm sad to say. I have a few links, though. They just posted this on some news sites: apparently the police dragged a couple local lakes today. And this link will take you to videos and their accompanying articles from the last two or three days. The one with Heather's mom? Heartbreaking.

It's been a tough week, hasn't it? Boston. Heather. Waco. And this week was the 7th anniversary of my dad's death. I think that's part of what makes Heather's disappearance even tougher. The anniversary of his death and the memories of all the scared nights, the time my mom walked out and he made me leave these horrible, sad, crying messages on her friends' answering machines while he screamed at me, the day 7 years ago I got 9 frantic messages that he'd disappeared. I guess those are stories I'll tell you someday. Today, this week, my heart aches for the child I was. And for what Heather's children(and her students) are going through now. To top it all off, today is Heather's daughter's birthday. Please keep praying for all of us.

(I think of this as my dad's song.)

But today there is a little light, small though it is. Our church started a new sermon series called "Alone Together: Lessons on Friendship from David and Jonathan." I'll probably post the sermon link once it's live. I like it already because, as I have said many times, where would we be without our friends? It would be a lonely, terrible road to be alone. It reminds me of this quote, I know I've posted it here before but it's worth a second (or more) look:

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.” –Louise Erdrich

After the first section of music, there was a special prayer for the victims in Boston. Afterward, the pastor speaking said that we do not grieve as those without hope. I haven't the slightest idea why I haven't read that verse over the last almost two years but here you go:

 But we do not want you to be uninformed, brothers and sisters, about those who have died, so that you may not grieve as others do who have no hope. For since we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so, through Jesus, God will bring with him those who have died. 1 Thessalonians 4:13-14

Isn't that beautiful?

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